Fragile or Strong?
Yesterday, someone who I haven’t spoken to in depth in awhile said I might be fragile. And inside I went 😒😑 haha because I do not feel fragile! Yes, last year was tough, but 2020 is a new year, new decade and I’ve never been more sure I’m walking in God’s path for my life.
You know that feeling when you know you’re doing what you’re supposed to be doing, or that you’re where you’re supposed to be? That confidence and energy that swells so big inside? I love that feeling ... that knowing, that ability to focus on what God has said / planned. On IG and in person, I think I’m very open about the ups and downs of life. But I never mean to do it in a dwelling sort of way. But in a ... these feelings (e.g. fear, anger, defensiveness, fear of rejection) are common and still happen to me, but then I recognise them and shove them away in the name of Jesus. Maybe some people read / hear snippets and think I’m in a low period.
But I am not.
God’s done a huge work in my heart so that I don’t dwell for long anymore (like I used to ... oh I used to dwell and dwell, marinating in melancholy as some people describe Type 4s). As fast as I can, I now do my best to ask the Holy Spirit for his help identifying and acknowledging what’s coming against me, claim his truth, ask for his help, and then move on whether that means I move on immediately or that I pray / meditate on his truth until it sinks in and then I move on. *But the Helper, the Holy Spirit ... he will teach you all things and bring to your remembrance all that I have said to you. Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid. (John 14:26-27)
So whether we are fragile or not (no shame in being in a fragile season, we’ve all been there!), I pray we run to God in all states, confess, seek his wisdom / guidance / strength / more and grow in confidence that he 100% has a plan for every single one of our lives and he is greater than anything the enemy throws our way. In him, for him, we can be stronger warriors for his kingdom than we ever thought possible. #theyayproject ❤️